Its January now so much time has passed
Life has come and life has gone
And Im still not sure whats left of me.
I know once upon a time
In some far far away land
My head was on straight
And my heart was still whole.
Now Im not even sure it beats properly.
I seem to have a heart murmur….
And its murmuring your name.
Your all I ever wanted
And all I never dreamt
I thought one day its all come together
And it would finally work
But I know now if you arent that girl in the beginning
You never will be
The butterflies were swallowed
By the empty
Black hole..
That my heart has become
And the love that I felt
Was replaced by a bottle of love
tequila by any other name
My confidence, my crutch.
I thought I could handle it
The heart break the pain
The goodbye
So long..
See you again never
But my fingers cripled as they waved
And my mouth dried up
As my 18 years worth of vocabulary
Became extinct
And my eyes… did something crazy
They blurred and they watered…
As if I could actually feel
My knees started to shake
As the wind knocked me down
As I realized
Now more than ever-- I was on my own.
Oooooh but shes used to it
They say
But my heart has never
Experienced a love drought.
For no matter if I had some one physically
There was always someone
To occupy my thoughts and
That wretched organ.
I swear if I didn’t need it to live…
Id donate it to the sick.
hasn’t done me any good--
Nor has it brought me any luck
So I’ll dust myself off
Once more
And pretend I believe
That I’ll find another..
And that maybe this time it wont fail..
But we all know everything ends…
So why ever start?
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