I wish I could look you in the eyes right now,
to tell you that everything will one day be alright.
Most people would abandon the sight of you,
but I can't find the cruelness in my heart to try.
I know you're struggling, I can hear it in your voice,
I can believe your words, because I onced believed in us.
I fear you becoming a person you are not deep down,
because you feel you always mess up, are worth nothing,
for in truth I feel real pain and hurt from that.
You've made mistakes, many in recents months,
you've broken my heart several hundred times.
But I'm the one who's willing to hold your hand,
if you needed me, I'd be willing to light the dark.
Because I know you're a good guy deep down,
I know you have it in you to be strong.
I just want you to believe, it hurts me so bad,
when I hear you cry; sorry I made you cry,
but you needed to know how hurt I was.
I'm sorry you hate yourself, I know how it feels,
I can't stand the sight of myself that much too.
I don't mean to pester, just worry about you,
I'm afraid you'll try and kill yourself again.
I don't understand what it all does mean,
because if we never go out with eachother again,
I will understand, because it is your wish.
I just didn't understand why you did it that way,
why the one you claimed to care for the most,
you suddenly decided to push away.
But I am here, the offer is always open,
if you need me to support you, I am your fire.
I wont hurt you, I know I did threaten you,
to be honest, it was jus to get your attention,
so that you could feel the hurt I'm feeling.
Didn't mean to be the way I was, crying tears,
I didn't mean to start you up either.
You acted so cold at the start,
but I started making you feel again, opening your heart.
Sorry I unleashed sensitivity, you loved me,
at least some time you did, I just have to believe -
and I know you can be nice, seen it before,
because I was once your precious baby girl,
and I was proud of it, I was proud of being yours,
because you were the best boyfriend I could ever have.
I guess I'm saying this is an open offer,
that you can lean on me if you so desire.
Just don't try to kill yourself again, please,
I fear you're actions, it really hurts me.
I cry for you not really for me,
because I know you've got nobody.
You say you want to give up or leave,
to never see people, not to make an effort,
but I beg you to do so, you have to give,
to recieve (I promise you it'd be worth it).
Just let me know how you are,
know I'll love you forevermore.
I will die missing you and loving you,
because first loves never truly die,
sorry to others I may at one time date.
But you took my virginity, took my heart,
you'll never totally leave me.
Though it infuriates you right now,
you should really be pleased that I care.
I know it hurts to be thought of,
because you believe others shouldn't care.
I know how it feels, but I always will,
I am yours here, to look after you.
You've hurt me and I wont take it,
but just because of that doesn't mean I wont still care.
Love you forever ((I WILL ALWAYS CARE)).
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