[ You probably dont think about me ]

You probably dont think about me
the way you used to back when
back in history, back in health
back in math, way back then.

You probably dont even remember
all the games we'd play
you dont remember how we felt
the hard things that i had to say.

You probably dont remember
shooting me down in sixth grade
you probably dont remember hurting me
making me so shy, so afraid.

You probably dont remember the talks,
the drawing on your hand
you dont remember the way you said you felt
the feelings you hadn't planned.

You said that you wanted to spend time with me
before you had to move away
and i remember being so choked up
not knowing what i had to say

I remember you holding my hand
on the last day of eighth grade
telling me we'd stay in touch, it wasnt that far
and there were so many plans we made.

I remember seeing you once in the summer
and that was by mistake
the way you wouldnt look at me
was the first time you made my heart break.

The second time
was the first b day at school
I thought i was over you
thought everything could finally be cool

Came running into class from P.E
a good three minutes late
looked around and saw you
made my body and mind hesitate

you said you had to move
i was speachless, i couldnt think
I sat down, i almost cried
it sent me over the brink.

It wasnt like i hadnt moved on
but you see,i fell for you hard
and i hadnt really gotten over
the feelings i could no longer regard.

So i moved away to kent
and for a year it was all going well
then you messaged me out of the blue
it was like you were putting me through another spell.

You flirt now again with me
and i dont know what you expect me to do
its not like i can say
i ever really had gotten over you.

Its all small talk now
although sometimes you go deep
and i dont know why your keeping me
from the happiness i seek