Altered

My conscienceness betrays me..My mind is now on hold
I watch thru eyes distorted for the story to unfold
I feel no grand emotion, a numbness now presides
How many more are like this, I'm dead, but still alive.

Oh carelessness, why did you rob me of my wanton joy?
What happened to the other me you're trying to destroy?
And what if  I discover that I'm stronger once again?
Will you then hide inside me..waiting for my end?

The cords of life within me emit a yellow hue
so lifeless, so colorless,I want no more of you
Please go away and let me be, I cannot bear the pain
It hurts me more to have you here, my life is not the same

There is another verse to this poem that I have not yet written. It will appear one day, unannounced, and perhaps it will hold my answer.

For I prayed to my God..and await his reply.