Into the darkness it pulls me.
I feel its’ hot breath on my neck.
It beckons for me to fall below, into its’ hollow despair.
It gnaws at my stomach and tears at my heart.
It feeds on my shame and thrives on my worthlessness.
The blackness holds a temptation that’s tough to ignore.
“Come!” it hollers. “You can hide down here;
hide from the loneliness and sorrow and guilt.
Allow the anger to shred your being and you’ll fit right
in to this empty, black darkness.
Numbness will overcome you and nothing will matter.”
I despise the call of the darkness,
but succumb to the promise it holds.
The promise of numbness, the death of the feelings
that threaten to expose me.
It will win me; it does every time.
Its’ power draws me down and holds me prisoner.
Escape is temporary and illusive.
I am fooled no more, and I surrender.
A contest entry
- Stopping The Ignorance Against Depression. by Poetryintheblood.
525 points, ended May 21, 2008, 19 entries
Bronze trophy winner
• next poem in this contest, remove from contest - Be inspired! (QUICKY) by kira1115.
600 points, ended September 4, 2008, 10 entries
Honorable mention
• next poem in this contest, remove from contest - Suffering from Depression, and dealing with it.... by Beautiful-N-Broken.
600 points, ended September 12, 2008, 12 entries
Honorable mention
• next poem in this contest, remove from contest - What Are The Sounds Of Horror Within Yourself? by theredcatjazzoflove.
700 points, ended October 10, 2008, 20 entries
Honorable mention
• next poem in this contest, remove from contest - { depression/ suicide} by Angel Eyed Baby.
702 points, ended December 22, 2008, 67 entries
Bronze trophy winner
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550 points, ended January 1, 30 entries
Silver trophy winner
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Comments
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this was a good poem. i really enjoyed reading it. thanks for entering and good luck.
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Wow. Very good write! I liked the ending the best. The part about escape being temporary is very true. But I think even though there is no real escape from it that there is a way to live in harmony with it. But yeah. Great flow, great write! Thank you for entering. Good luck!
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Thanks much!
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Alright, this is very very good.
It's gonna be hard to improve much from this.
xD
Please put your AP name in your Authors notes so I don't forget pretty please. =]
Can't wait for your freshwrite.
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okay..done...sorry I forgot..thanks for your kind comment. Blessings, Patty
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Wow. This poem is wonderfully dark. It personifies depression like a siren calling to you to come to it's "comfort" where you can hide and pity yourself. You want desperatly to be away from this hole that calls you. I really like this poem because of the imagery and depth.
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Absolutely wonderfully expressed. Its like you were looking into my mind. Not to often I feel this way but I know it's there hiding and waiting. Thank you and God Bless, Jo--Ann
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i love this poem i see why it snatched all the trophies it did because it is a well delivered piece good luck to you in the contest
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A beautiful write that should never have been. I like the way you put these feelings across. You cannot hide these feelings when they arise. I have been there and know exactly what you are saying. Desperation always holds on, but it will not win in the long run.
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Thanks much for your kind words. It is true that it is not helpful to hold those feelings in, and I have learned a great deal since I wrote this poem. Blessings, Patty
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Wow, this i think this really captures the fight. good job and good luc
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This is a very emotional piece, very good. Thank you for entering and good luck in the contest.
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Very emotional. I am glad that you found a piece that you had already written to enter in my contest. I loved it.
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Thank you so much. Patty
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Wow, such an emotional piece. Telling us about how luring the darkness can be very awful and scary and makes you feel alone great write <3
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thank you for entering! this is a very emotional piece! I loved it! you did a wonderful job and good luck!
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Wow, such an emotional piece. Telling us about how luring the darkness can truly be. Great work! The last line, I think, is probobly my favorite. Such a way to end the piece.
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Thank you for your much heartfelt and insightful entry, good luck in my contest, Josie
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Oh my dear you described the darkness to a tee!! Such powerful words with such obvious feelings of losing control. i hope you are feeling better I hope you have come away from the darkness and it has lost. I know how hard that feeling is. Many hugs~Nikki
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"The promise of numbness, the death of the feelings
That threaten to expose me.
It will win me; it does every time."
I can so relate as a suffer of Clinical Depression. I can't seem to pull out lately no matter how hard I try. What a wonderful yet so sad write. Thanks for sharing, I am here if you ever need to talk. Love and hugs Theresa
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Hi Theresa, thank you for your kind comment. This was written many years ago when the depression was very severe. I think because I had begun dealing with abuse from my childhood. Things have gotten much better as I have learned better ways to cope and how to take better care of me. I still struggle to stay out of that terrible darkness sometimes though. I am sorry you struggle with this too. Be extra kind to yourself. this is what your heart needs. My counselor taught me how to do a heart meditation. She also recently gave me a printout about taking part of a day to notice when you are speaking badly about yourself, either inside your head, or actually speaking bad. It says, do not beat yourself up more because you are doing it, just notice when you do. Thenthe second part of the day take a moment to silently promise yourself that from this moment on you will begin to practice non-harming in word, thought and deed. It will not be easy,but it says it takes a lot of practice. I don't know about you, but I can beat myself up more than anyone else ever could. Sorry to ramble on. I hope you feel better soon. The offer to talk goes both ways and I am here for you too..Blessings, Patty
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it is a heavy old blanket, this thing called depression, it swallows life and hope soon follows into that all to familliar spiral - isolation seems to be the only answer (for me) when meds are, for whatever reason, not effective. this is an all too familiar scene, very well written
blessings and best wishes,
~r.
astralshepherd
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Thank you. Yes, I tend to isolate too when I begin into that dark place, but with much therapy and soul searching I have learned better ways to cope. Writing is so healing for the soul...Patty
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ohhh the feelings of depression. i can relate to this. But I never understand why you'd not want to feel. It's what makes us human. Thank you for entering.
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They always say that depression is anger turned inwards so that is part of the problem with depression. Thanks for your comment.
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Another great write
Patty you are such a great poet. Don't you sink into that darkness anymore you hear me girl. You have a wonderful road ahead of you full of great things to achieve. You are going to be a force to be reckoned with. You'll see.
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