There isn't a day that goes by without me thinking of you.
When I first lost you I thought my life was over,and I didn't know what to do.
I Prayed to god for strength and courage, to move ahead.
With his help I was able to take it one day at a time instead.
Now I know that you are shining down on me from heaven.
And you are liven in the hearts of those who love you.
Eventually I know we will be together again one day.
But everyday I am wishing I had that last chance to say I love you.
written March 12 2005
I have a secret
I have a secret.....
Do you want to know what it is?
It’s building up like Fizz in a can of pop.
If you shake me to much I will drop.
I have a secret.....
Do you even care?
I don’t know if I can trust you to bare everything.
I have secret…..
It hurts deep deep inside.
When I think about it I want to hide.
I have a secret.....
I’m worried if I tell you
You will be like everyone else and bid me adieu.
I have a secret…..
It will undo my wall of protection
And I will be forced to take action.
I have a secret …..
I’m scared and I know it’s my entire fault
And when I think about it
It stings like salt on a fresh wound.
I have a secret…..
I feel like I have drowned in pain
If I tell you what will I gain?
I have a secret…..
It’s big and it has shattered my life
My uncle sexually abused me
and feels like I have been stabbed with a knife.
written Dec 29 2007
A contest entry
- First and Last by CarolDesjarlais.
525 points, ended January 4, 2008, 27 entries
• next poem in this contest, remove from contest
What did you think
Comments
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The first poem is well written and poignant. I dare say anyone who has experieced death would surely agree.
The second poem fills me with blood-lust. Though I'm sure my rage does not equal yours, no hell is deep and painful enough for such a person. I hope writng these poems was cleansing for you. May light shine on you.
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Two powerful poems.... two really good poems....but of course, there is a huge difference between the first and the second... you began moving into true poetic expression and the way you wrote the last shows plannign rather than pure spewing...and yes, there is a time and a palce for this kidn of writing...it is healing and you will feel less isolated because others will comment. Well done, ty.
btw.
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such a sad poem... perhaps the pain isn't so bad now that you've vented it into your writing. its horrible to hear such a terrible thing happening, but someone else has always been there. or in a worse situation. the transfer from love to pain was done well tho. good luck in the contest! oh yeah great writing
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