Waiting on you && it was my first time....

Waiting On You [Oct 30.07]
http://allpoetry.com/poem/3558846
picture inspiration:
http://allpoetry.com/images/ext/Image/32/374.jpg

I walk through the fields
Wondering when I'll see you
Never knowing what is truth
So, for now-
I'll wait patiently
Looking after the butterfly of our love

&&

It was my first time.... [Dec 31.07]
http://allpoetry.com/poem/3757936

It was just a party,
or at least that's all it was supposed to be
But i let myself get wasted
I'm not even sure if i could see straight
I know I couldn't walk straight...
But somehow we made our way to his room
Where he took off my pants
I didnt realize what was going on
Well, I knew- but I couldn't react
I was thinking about alcohol
The movie we were watching
And the alcohol
I had so much to drink
Maybe that was my mistake.
Yes it definitely was.
Before I knew it he was done
Such a lame one, he was.
I made him leave me alone
So I could try to find my pants.
I went straight to the bathroom
And started to cry
That's not nothing like I planned my first time
He should have known better
I don't even know if he used protection.
I found more alcohol
Because I was so disapointed in myself
How could I let this happen
I was so stupid...
But for now I remind myself
I was drunk
He was not.
This wasn't my fault.
It was his.
But I'm better now
Because that was months ago.
I still don't know if he used protection...
At least I didn't get pregnant