It was just a party,
or at least that's all it was supposed to be
But i let myself get wasted
I'm not even sure if i could see straight
I know I couldn't walk straight...
But somehow we made our way to his room
Where he took off my pants
I didnt realize what was going on
Well, I knew- but I couldn't react
I was thinking about alcohol
The movie we were watching
And the alcohol
I had so much to drink
Maybe that was my mistake.
Yes it definitely was.
Before I knew it he was done
Such a lame one, he was.
I made him leave me alone
So I could try to find my pants.
I went straight to the bathroom
And started to cry
That's not nothing like I planned my first time
He should have known better
I don't even know if he used protection.
I found more alcohol
Because I was so disapointed in myself
How could I let this happen
I was so stupid...
But for now I remind myself
I was drunk
He was not.
This wasn't my fault.
It was his.
But I'm better now
Because that was months ago.
I still don't know if he used protection...
At least I didn't get pregnant
Author notes
Options
1) What your first time was like
Yup.
I was with a couple of my girlfriends and we went to this guys house cuz he bought like 50 dollars worth of alcohol for us, I just wanted to get drunk, it was back in August- i think, and I had way way way too much to drink. Now everytime I see him I get nautious. I'm just glad I don't see him everyday. The little worm. Yeah I have no clue if he used protection and I would have nightmares that I got pregnant and my parents would kick me out of the house and then he tried to steal the baby from me... but nothing like that ever happend.
And i'm okay =D
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option 3
write about a tradgedy or an event that changed your life for the better or worse
option 4
write about your biggest regret or fear in life
A contest entry
- First Time by xTroubled-Teenx.
500 points, ended January 14, 2008, 7 entries
Gold trophy winner
• next poem in this contest, remove from contest - BATTLE OF THE GOLDS TWO by Swan song.
1200 points, ended September 20, 2008, 41 entries
• next poem in this contest, remove from contest
Well, what do you think?
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Always alcohol or drugs combinethem with young girls
who are in blossom and whammo stay sober
very truth telling poem very good
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this is very sad, im sorry to hear this i bet you have heard that line so many times, this is a typical place women get raped its sad that men are such vile creatures, good luck recovering and i wish you the best in later life and with your writing
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wow. Im really sorry to hear this, glad you didnt get preg. tho.
Good luck.
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that is definetly intense and im glad that you were able to get that personal. im sorry thats what your first time was like ... almost like rape... that was my first time and only. i love the emotion in this peice and i love the way you presented it. i love the way that the emotion was uber evident and good luck in my contest
this is my favorite line
"That's not nothing like I planned my first time
He should have known better"
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this is very good. and its a sad true story. you are brave to write about it. yes you are glad that you didn't get pregnant. just stay strong and one day...kick him in the nuts
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buy us bus tickets and will get em uh-huh
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i'll do my best.
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i should shhot him i rate ut good becouse i know it had ta be hard ta open up
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thanks. it actually wasnt really all that hard to write because it happened a while ago. the hardest part is seeing him every know and again. like a few days before christmas i saw him in the book store. i thought i was gonna get sick.
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