you cause me pain....

this pain that i'm feeling,
is mostley from you.
when i ask you to explain,
well "thats just what I do".
do you remember anything,
or are you just to fucking high,
to remember what you promised,
insted you fucking lie.
i tried to stop talking,
tried to get over you.
but lets face reality,
thats something i can't do.
i'm always hopful,
that it'll be okay.
that you will tell me you love me,
because thats all i want to say.
you never told me,
you could only love me for a while.
but i can never be mad,
because you use to make me smile.
i use to brag,
about you and your charm,
and i told them all,
that you woulden't cause me any harm.
i know you have a girlfriend,
and i found someone to love me,
but the fucked up part is,
its you i want him to be.
how could i do this?
all for some guy,
who i've never even met,
who always makes me cry.
i have a great boyfriend,
he loves me,he cares.
i can't return that love,
tell me is that fair?
i'm so stuck on you,
someone not serious,
am i fucking crazy?
i think i'm delerious.
your so far away,
why do i care so much.
i should be strong,
because your oh so tough.
but i'm just not like that,
i'm weak,i am dumb.
when i think of your girlfriends,
it makes me go numb.
i should love alex,
the way i loved you.
but i still want you,
what the hell do i do?
break it off fast,
tell me you hate me.
don't call me your friend,
don't tell me you'll meet me.
if you cared about me at all,
you'd do what i tried.
get rid of me thomas,
and i promise not to cry.
you started this,
now end it fast.
tell me i'm stupid,
take it all back.
promise you'll never,
forget my name.
don't forget my part,
in this on-going game.
i tried to get rid,
of you and my sadness,
but it turned into depression,
greeted by maddness.
so take it all back,
and block me from you.
because if you do not,
i can't get over you.