& There are moments where I wish you could just disappear, from my life, from my head, from my heart...because you never did anything right
because the one thing you did wrong, left me wishing that rhythm in my chest wouldn't start, again.
& There are moments I wish I could erase, lose and forget to find
You'd be gone for good, once Eternal Sunshine
now just Spotless Mind
So don't look back at me when you walk away
you don't deserve to see my pretty eyes
Don't say you don't know why I say what I say
hatred follows no lie as a surprise
So juggle those tears and make me laugh
cause I honestly fail to care
I close my eyes forget to try
turn the other way and stare
straight ahead
I dream of days when you will let me fly alone
free from chains I never wanted
saved from choices never chose
Author notes
My best friend tried to commit suicide yesterday. I started this poem BEFORE and finished it today AFTER....he says he is in love with me & slowly it is becoming an obsession. He doesn't know I have a boyfriend, but I now am turning fearful of him hurting himself and me in the process. He ODed & jumped in front of a car & STILL lived & he said he almost put sugar in my gas take & slashed my tires. I'm freaking out here!!!! Then today well we are always all up on each other, but today we were & I told him to stop & he pretty much refused & it was just bleh now I feel guilty but I know deep down it's not even my fault!!!! Help anyone?!!?
Please tell me what you think
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holy shit! rough day huh? i guess maybe you need to talk it out with him, but if that doesnt work get away and fast!
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