My Silent Thoughts

i feel like im just beginning my life
but i feel like i should be ending it
forgive me if i sound like anothe emo kid
but life sucks and i wanna die
every night before i go to sleep...
i wonder what it would be like to be dead
to fall asleep and never awake
to drive my car straight into a tree
to OD on pills of many different varities
sometimes it scares me,
having these thoughts
and sometimes what scares me most
is i dont want to hold on...