I remember not crying,
not shedding a tear for your sorry behind,
making no facial expressions to show my heartache,
making no bodily movements to show my hidden pains.
I remember my heart becoming this numb organ,
no open sepulchre to love anymore,
because loving you was all I knew that I was doing right,
but my heart stopped beating for you that night.
I want to say I never shed a tear,
I want to say my heart kept beating and I had no fear,
but those words rolled off of your tongue,
like a judge giving the verdict,
Debra I Love You but I'm not IN love with you anymore,
I fell out of love the day I walked out the door.
I remember not crying but my tears hit the floor like shattered glass,
I remember calling you sorry but still knowing that you would always be the love of my life,
I remember sitting in the floor thinking where did I go wrong?
Do I love too hard,
was I wrong to fall in love with you?
Was I wrong to give you my heart?
Do you love her was the expression on my face?
Is she better than me?
Do you love her personality?
Can she give you unconditional love like me?
No matter how many times you said no,
your facial expressions were telling me yes,
I could feel your heart beating in your chest,
and it was telling me there's no room for you here.
I remember sitting on the couch;
tears unwillingly flowing from my sockets because of the love I have for you,
questions poured out into snot and tears,
heartache smashing against my brain,
I feel insane,
a woman high off of a love that can no longer be sustained,
but my heart is still wild for you and cannot be tamed,
and I remembered it so differently because I was ashamed.
Maybe I'm not good enough for you,
just too much below your standards,
maybe I don't love you like you want me to,
maybe it's just not enough.
But I remember being tough,
when in reality I was weak.
Author notes
Merry Christmas to me.
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omg!!!
this was excellent not only did you get the emotions across to the reader but you made us think of a time that it happened to us as well excellent keep up the good work
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Well done!
Reading you leaves me feeling numb. You really come close to other people's emotional centers. Thanks for an intense, personal share.
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Wow this one made me cry.
it was very sad and very deep. It really shows what you went through. Great job!
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wow my fav part was
I could feel your heart beating in your chest,
and it was telling me there's no room for you here.
That one line has so much meaning, thank you and good luck in the contest
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I try to. Thanks for entering.
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