You took away what I can never get back
You stole my viginity with no slack
You never fucking cared
Only dared
To take what was mine
As though it was yours on a vine
The one thing to me that was divine
But you treated me like swine
You forced your cock down my throat
As all you did was gloat
All the time treating me like a piece of meat
Saying you were gonna give me a creamy treat
After that was done
You said, "Now even more fun."
Making me lay on my tummy
You told me, "Here is the part so yummy."
You put your cock in my butt
Treating me like your slut
Fucking me so hard
I couldn't move a nard
After inside me you shot your load
You felt relieved and went into sleeping mode
I felt so used
Not knowing I was abused
I was your toy
Even though I was just a boy
I didn't know what to do
I had no clue
I tried and try to move on
But I feel as if a part of me is gone
A part that I will never get back
Like I'm always under your attack
You have to die
So I can spread my wings and fly
I hate you so much
My hands in a wretched clutch
I cry a lot in pain
So much the tears fall like rain
You Son of a Bitch
You fucked the wrong Witch
Die you fucker
Die you cock sucker
I hate your fucking guts
You treat boys like your sluts
Not giving a shit
Putting us in an emotional pit
So deep within
We can't raise our chin
Go to hell
Not hearing a bell
Free us from your shell
That we may be well
Able to hear our song
Rather than an eerie gong
Sexually and emotionally free
Dancing on the sea
You've hurt and cursed us
Put each boy on your bus
Taking away our moments to shine
Unable to someone we love to wine and dine
Our lives to live in a horrible hell
A pain that is a constant swell
Fuck Off Bastard
Flower your cock with mustard
Shove it down YOUR throat
As WE gloat
And YOU get the creamy treat
As WE treat YOU like a piece of meat
Get out of my life
And take your cunning strife
As we cut you up with a knife
And go on hopefully finding a husband or a wife
Get out of my dreams
They're already ripped at the seams
Leave me alone
So my life and dreams may be resown
Your damage is done
Even as I've grown
Your end is near
And NO! I'm NOT your DEAR!
So go the fuck away
Uncle so fucking gay
You mother fuckin' closet case
My mind that can't erase
Away with you
And your memory too
I hate what you did
Forced to pay your bid
Now let me go
And my own seeds sew
In the way actual love is meant
Burying you in cement
Able to hopefully love
And fly like a dove
With someone who can
Love me like a real man
Romancing me true
As we look at the sky so blue
Happily together
Like birds of a feather
Helping me put you and what you did behind
Out of sight and out of mind
You fucking cock sucker
And child molester
I hate you
And your ugly ass cock too
Author notes
I wrote this back in October of 2006 after waking up from one of nightmares of the sexual abuse I went through as a child. I am not gay bashing as I am gay as well. I have no problems with gay people at all. I do however have a problem with anyone who sexually abuses children or molests children. I would not and will murder or take out justice on my own even though I may make references to wanting to get revenge in whatever form that may take. As I have written in my author's notes I want to share with others what I have been through and what certain events that I have been through so they can understand what going through certain life experiences (sexual abuse for one) is like and how it affects a person even as an adult. Also, to help others who have gone through this to realize that they are not alone and what they are feeling is real. I want to let them know they aren't alone in what they are thinking and feeling.
People say, "let it go and move on" but it isn't that easy. I was sexually abused at the age of 5 and have over the past few years found out through others that it was going on even before that. I am still piecing the puzzle together as my mind unlocks memories and shows me information as I am able to deal with it. Counseling helps, but it doesn't take any of the feelings, thoughts, or memories away.
I am sorry if this offends anyone, I am just trying to show what going through this does to someone and I hope that it will help someone who has gone through this.
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