Here I am

Here I am
I’m falling
Breaking
Crumbling away
I’m shattering into a million pieces
Never to be put back whole again

I’m crying
I’m scared
The tears are trapped in my darkened eyes
Eyes full of sorrow and sadness

Nightmares creep up on me
Silently at first
But then slice right through and surround me
I will never get away

I feel trapped
By my own actions
And I can’t take this pain
I can’t take this stress
I can’t handle what I’ve become

And I tell myself…take control…
End this madness…be happy again
But I can’t.
Not right now.
The solution is hidden and it isn’t worth looking for.