a cold chill went down my spine and left me short of breath.
I swallowed the pain and broken pieces of a reality so shattered;
so caught up in a web of lies, it was as if nothing else mattered.
An empty void created inside, to hide all the dreary thoughts;
agony eats inside what is real, and now I know that I've fought
a losing battle, I have to give up, even after how hard I tried,
for what good is a life lived in emptiness everyday, as if my heart has died?
I sit on the edge, contemplating how I wasn't even prepared,
for I looked into death's face tonight-and realized I wasn't scared.
rose blood 87 aka Miracle Layman
Author notes
suicidal overdose-point made
I wish I could say this was a work of fiction, but sadly it is not. I slipped back last week and tried to OD on antidepressants, and I don't even know why I did, but it happened. I went through a good three year bout of depression when I was younger and tried to then, too, and thankfully didn't succeed. Hopefully I'll never feel like I need to do that ever again...
A contest entry
- Act Apalled, And Listen To The Past by pillowjoe.
600 points, ended January 3, 2008, 12 entries
• next poem in this contest, remove from contest - DREARY by Joe Bloggs.
300 points, ended February 3, 2008, 16 entries
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Please tell me what you think
Comments
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This is a really good write. I am sorry to hear that you tried to kill yourself...Everyone hit that low at some point in time. Amazing poem. I hope everything gets better for you. Keep your chin up and smile Thanks for the entry and good luck!
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Last line was really good
I really like this piece.
Good Luck,
Erika
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wow, love the last line, awsome!
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Thank you for entering my contest for DREARY poems. This is not very dreary in my opinion. Depressing yes. Dreary no.
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great poem. good luck.


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Very powerful!
I like this. Your rhyme works well and doesn't seem forced. Interesting how the first two lines and last line are paradoxical. They seem to contradict, but make sense (especially with the explanation in your author notes). Well done. Good luck in the contest.

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Thank you very much.
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