I give up
I give up
I give up!
I give up trying to please you
it never worked anyways
I only made you fucking angry.
While you were yelling at me
I was crying and writing the suicide letter
in my head.
Dearest dad,
I always knew you wanted me dead,
all you had to do was say the words.
And I would leave you,
god knows I should have died
a long time ago.
This life isn't even worth it.
When your heart is shattered
into millions of pieces, why go on living?
Cut me open once more
make a huge fucking incision.
Cause daddy, I can't go on living.
I fucked up so long ago
if you only knew
what I've been through I'm sure you'd hate me even more.
Maybe I should tell you what happened
cause I know you would kick me out of the house
cause everyone fucking knows, IT WAS ALL MY FAULT.
And I hate living with the regret.
I hate living period.
I hate breathing it only hurts me.
Everyone knows you've always fucking hated me.
Only wanted to beat me when I was two years old.
I must have deserved it, I must have done something terribly wrong.
You stupid fucked up father,
I hate you!
Why do you pretend to care?
You can't tell me you have changed
when I still see the hate in your eyes.
I see it every time you look at me.
Or maybe it's just the fact
that you can't have me,
like you had my sister.
Go burn in hell
you sick twisted fuck.
I hate you.
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hidingxeveryday
BE RAW!
A contest entry
- Give Me [[RAW EMOTION]] by brittany.geeze.
525 points, ended January 8, 2008, 18 entries
Honorable mention
• next poem in this contest, remove from contest
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You're a finalist!
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Yay! Good luck with the judging! ( =
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I know life is hard sometimes, but you have to keep going on. This is a perfect example of mixed feelings. You say you hate yourself and don't blame him for doing it, then you are angry at him for hating you and calling him twisted, protecting yourself. You don't know what to think and when you've gone through abuse, it's hard often to know what to think. I'm glad he didn't do stuff to you like your sister, not sure why as those types tend to go from eldest to youngest btw. It's his fault, not yours.
If ever want to talk, you know what my sn is x -
Everything about ths poem is raw and full of emotions. i absolutely love it thanks for entering, good luck... and Keep Writing.
Oh be sure to go to the contest page and look for what is to be inclded in your author's notes.
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This life isn't even worth it.
When your heart is shattered
into millions of pieces, why go on living?
^^ I love those lines. I feel the same way.
[I terribly hate my father as well.] -
I thought I had hate toward my father. WOW
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yeah.
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I agree with you he does need to go to Hell and burn
I love you sweety always always hang in there darling you are an amazing soul even though you dont see it much love
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I love you too
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