Tomorrows goodbyes

There was something different in the air. Something electric. I can watch as the ghosts of my past float by like lights flickering off into the distant sky. Reflections of years gone by. Slowly coming to the cross roads of change. A new year, a new life. I have lost good friends this year over petty differences. I regret nothing. I have gained new friends of satirical humor and prose on street corners. I regret nothing. I have found love in an odd place. I regret nothing.
    The small flickering memories of people lost start to fade slowly. Always there, but no longer a constant nagging in my mind. I miss the years past. All ghosts in my mind. I miss them. I miss the person I once was. But I still regret nothing. I have made bad choices in my life but all of them have made me the person I am today, and all in all, she is a better person.
  There is something strange today. Today is a day of reflection. Certain faces stand out strongly in my mind. One is the face of primal innocence. Strong, sensual, and above all amusing. Inside jokes and laughter.
    The next one of stern remorse. We have the world inside a tea cup tonight, and you'd rather drink from the faucet.
    A face looms into view, one with pale eyes and dark hair. A face that brought me to new heights, and a new understanding of myself, of love, and of letting go of something you wanted to badly it hurt. Thalo love is as blue as its namesake. And the last is that of mirth, and boyish good looks. A Lovers touch, and the innocence of childhood held inside such a manly frame. Eyes that deceive the grin. A lover, A friend, A confidant.
  As I sit here, speaking, thinking, I wait for when the world will stop spinning. I have moved forward while others have dragged behind. I work a full time job. I go to school full time. I have grown up. More so this year than anything.


    I miss yesterday, But i will not let it get in the way of my tomorrow.