Pretense

I could taste the fear on your lips
But it didn’t stop me
Because my heart knew that sometimes people change
And my head thought I could be the one to make it happen

I tried over and over
To get through past your flesh
To that ice cold organ
You called your heart
Until one day I woke up
And realized
If I couldn’t make it melt in the beginning

Would I ever provide enough warmth to do so?

I lied so many nights on your warm bed
Wrapped in your cold arms

Freezing my way to sadness
And despair

Despair that I opened up my heart..
And saddened that I opened my legs.

Hoping that  my behind closed doors
Intentions
Could reel you in

But I should have known
That if I couldn’t rule your head
Id never win your heart

You were never a safe choice,
But I suppose that’s what drew me in.


How is it so easy to disappear from someone
You pretended to care about
And pretended like you were falling

I never asked you to do any of what you did
You did it by will
Of your scared shitless heart

And if I hadn’t checked for myself
Id swear you had a pussy
Because Ive never seen any man run so scared