a disappointment sometimes

I could change the world
break through with a breakthrough
but unfortunately
I happen to be
a bit too tired

the last thing I need
is coffee
and cheering up.
my teeth are yellowing
already,
and I've only drunk a couple cups
this week.
I'm weak
and I know I can be
a disappointment sometimes
so I'm sorry
but I'm really not all that sorry.
I think I'll make myself
some tea.

I could glue the gap
yea, I could close the chasm
between shhh...
silence and chatterboxes

the last thing I need
is kissing
or making up.
my heart is decaying
already,
and I've only fallen once.
I'm sorry
because I know I can be
a disappointment sometimes.
so I think I'll make myself
a noose.

I could cure your soul
from some subconscious disease
you like to self-diagnose
and lucky me - it's always contageous

the last thing I need
is honesty
or wising up.
my tongue is ready
already,
and I'll quick-wit a response
to your wry
questions why
I can be a disappointment sometimes.
but I won't,
no I can't appologize.
I think I'll make myself
a new bed.

[a new bed]
[a new bed]
[a new bed]