Giving Up Happily

I'm looking at you
You can't see
But I'm looking at you

As you watch what's ahead
Looking out for me

I smile
Loving your oblivious demeanor

You don't know

I still love you

But I don't know anymore
If it's how you love me

I want a break
I don't want the drama

Of a love life

Of belonging officially to another

I want friends

Lots of friends

Only friends

And you take this pretty well
Better than I'd expected

And now I'm behind you
Looking at your concentrating face

As you watch what's coming

Still protecting me

Still loving me

As you always have

You're my friend
You're my protector
You're my guardian angel

I know you love me
You love me as yours

But I love you as my friend
And I love you as my protector
As my knight, always protecting

You make me happy
You make me smile

But sometimes I need a break
I need to belong to me
And only me

I need to just be with my girls
Sometimes I don't want the love
Your love

Your drama

I love to follow you
My angel

And it feels amazing

But sometimes I need to get off your crazy ride

And take a minute

To just live

By myself

You're amazing
If you can take this
And still love me

And I know you can
And I know you will

Please know, my knight

I do love you
At least for who you are

But please know, too
That I can't be with you

Not now

As I see you leave me

I smile

Because I know you'll still be there
Just in a different way

And I stop worrying

We'll be okay

Without the drama

I'm giving up lust
What's known as love

At least for now

Screw love
Bring on the rest of life