Uncertain

All I feel I can do
is sit around and
wait for you.
Will you come back to me,
or have i lost you forever?

Uncertainty kills me,
it leads me astray
and its letting my heart,
turn and decay.

I don't even know,
which of the two i want.
Though there are things,
that I thought we'd do.
And yet we now may not.

Whether I could move on,
or be yours again,
I really don't know anymore.
It scares me so deeply.

Live for the moment,
i'm trying to do,
but a constant uncertain future,
leaves me scared to live.

Author notes

It's weird.
And it sucks big time.........i dont know what to do/think/know....
I'm still in love with him, which is why im continiously in so much pain, but it makes it hurt less to remind myself im doing this /for/ him.
Just the future scares the shit out of me....