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Gold - Hush Your Mouth
Do you know how bad it hurts, for someone to call you a whore, at the age of five. To be told that you will die, if you don't heed his command. To be told that your sisters, will suffer the consequences too. Do you know how it feels, to sit in silence most of our life wanting to speak but in fear to do so. You are a bitch, born and bred for sex, nothing more, nothing else, for you girls, are worthless cunts. You are a stupid idiots, girls have no brains just puss and tits, and hell you are not even beautiful, you look like a piece of shit. Your life is worthless, you are trailer trash, you'll never amount to anything, in this world. I may as well kill you here an now, but then who will give me head if I do that, so I think I'll keep you around. But do as I say or I'll embarrass you, I will tell every one what you have done. You will be the fool, and the loser, not me. Do as I say now, you worthless piece of miserable trash.
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Tears streaming down my face, in fear for my life, I have to do as he says. In fear that he will tell all, that I am a whore is so embarrassing, and I had crept around in school. They always stare at me, I wonder do they know. Someone asks a question, deep down inside, I want to answer, but I can't, so now they call me a retard too. I got suspended from school, for not answering questions, or not doing a project, with an assigned partner, as well. I cried to myself every night, wishing I had friends, knowing this is not right. I hate those sons of bitches for torturing me, and this pain still lingers today.
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"You disgusting child hush your mouth, don't say or word or you'll be dead," as he tears my clothes from my body, then with hands he grabs my breasts. "I promise to hurt you and your family if I ever see you speaking to anyone, also telling everyone you sucked my dick, and that you enjoyed it very much." "You are a whore," he says and grabs my head, forcing me to the ground. "Get on your knees you filthy bitch and suck away before my balls split." "Emmm, you suck good just like your Mom, I fucked her to a while ago, I wish you could of saw that, you little cunt, you might of learned a few tips." "Do not say a word to any at all, for I might have to do this to your sisters to., Ohhh, the little one she looks fine, I bet she could suck dick better than you."
© Cara L. Greenlee, All rights reserved
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I hope this is ok for you if it isn't you can dq it I don't mind
I've lived in silence practically my whole life still afraid to speak in person to many because of this.
You know how hard it is to go to school in fear that to even say a word to a teacher would cause you to suffer more pain, or that your family would suffer as well.
I was emotionally and physically abused by several men from the time I was five up until 14 when I couldn't take it no more and learned that what they were doing was wrong. I am 28 today and still suffering from the effects
I can't hardly even speak to my husband that much I can see there eyes watching me. and I am afraid to speak.
when I do things always come out wrong I know what i want to say but things get mixed up and he always gets frustrated. I can't help it but He loves me deeply and understands. I always tell him just wait a few minutes and I will eventually get it out. or sometimes writing it down instead. Some people have called me retarded in the past because of this I am far from that and have a bright mind. Just traumatized to the point that it seems that way.
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- Deep, emotional, Life poems, Leave me feeling your pain by LanguishedLad.
700 points, ended February 22, 19 entries
Gold trophy winner
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i love the fog that is covering the boat! and how it's just a lonely ship...the colors are fantastic too!
congrats on gold!
~NeeCee
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Beautiful and Amazing
Wow that is a lovely background. I love the color scheme and everything. It really goes well. The fog along the ship's side just makes it look so real. I love how the sky surrounds the ship. It reminds me of the Pirate's of the Carribean how they had such wonderful imagery, this is just so amazing. It isnt animated, but yet it looks so real and well detailed. You must have put a lot of work into this.
Great job.
Thank you for sharing this with me.
It is much appreciated.
Have a wonderful day.
God Bless you.
You definently deserved the Gold Trophy!
~Only1love4ever
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