Unanswered

So many unanswered questions
Will I ever find the answers?
Are there even answers to the questions I ask?
I guess only time will tell
But how long will that be?
A day, a month, a year?

I don’t know how much longer I can keep going on keeping to myself,
Holding it all back from the world
I know you have moved on,
And it kills me to see you with her, happier than you were with me

Will I ever feel again you touch so warm?
Will your kiss ever again grace my lips?
Am I to be forever forced to endure the pain?
Knowing I am no more to you?
That I am a mere stranger in your eyes,
Not worthy of your affection?

I walk away from you with unspoken regrets,
And a feeling I cannot explain

They say time heals all wounds
What about the ones unseen to the naked eye?
That burns deep and forever scars the bearer?

Everyday is like a never-ending night,
But yet there is a light ahead and I will follow
Slowly I believe I will heal from the pain you have dealt me
This emptiness I feel is slowly fading

I don’t know when ill be over you
And its sad to say I regret every minute I was with you
It shouldn’t be this way
You gave me no choice

What was I supposed to do
Plead with you to stay
It was not an option
You weren’t happy

So for your sake I hope now you are
Now I see your face and wonder
Did you ever even care about me?
Was it all a lie?

A trap I fell into headfirst with no escape?
No way to pull myself out

It hurts me to know I was not good enough to keep you
I have done nothing but loose in this battle I so desperately want out of
I keep letting myself fall

But again I see that light and I follow feeling less and less pain
Numbness overrides
I begin to feel nothing
Maybe it’s better this way

Ill learn from my mistakes
I'm weak it’s true
But everyday I’m apart from you I feel myself strengthen
Everyday It’s easier to walk away from your smiling face

I know now even though you haunt my dreams that I’ll be okay
And these tears I cry are tears of goodbye
I have learned my fantasy isn’t coming true
That was shattered when i gave you my heart

Maybe I don’t wont to know why you left the way you did
Maybe its better left unsaid
Maybe it won’t hurt so much this way
There are so many unanswered questions
One day just maybe I’ll get my answers.