[ I keep replaying your soft words ]

I keep replaying your soft words
"I love you"
& i keep hearing the fear in your whisper
"I dont want to go back"

I been laying awake at night
Swearing i can feel you
Holding me in your arms tight

You kiss my cheek
As you whisper
"Finally"

My eyes stay shut
With warm tears
Knowing your not really there

Its so amazing
That after all that time we spent apart
The fire between us
Still had that pretty lil spark

& its so hard to believe now
That after finally realizing
You could be mine once again
& you promised to stay this time

I have to let you go
As you run around
Hideing from yourself

Ive been laying awake at night
Thinking i hear your voice in my phone
Thinking your calling to say
" Baby im on my way home"

But i only hear the beeping of its death
So i set it down
& close my eyes for the night
Hopeing tomorrow will be bring the light

Awaiting your return again
Knowing there may be no return this time
That maybe this time
You wont find your way back to me

That maybe alcohol
& drugs will find there way to take you far
To far
That even the earth cant hold you down

& ill be left here in the shattered earths tears
Wrapped in my own glass tears & fears...