When I look into her eyes
I see myself reflected back
Wondering when I'd ever breath
When I'd finally come up from the water
And stop myself from sinking
Further into the despair
That never seemed to end
She walks alone
Wondering if anyone else knows
What's written on her face
And scarred across her heart
Wondering when his face will go away
Does this feeling of weakness ever stop?
Will the words continue to haunt her
Will they stop replaying in her mind
Will the nightmares turn into peaceful dreams
Will he ever know how much he's truly hurt me
When does the need to make him suffer
Finally leave my thoughts?
Does the anger finally subside
Only time has those answers
When we finally learn
That there's no more need to cry
When we can forgive but not forget
That's how we'll know
When light finally reaches us
And stops the process of drowning
When his voice sounds like distant screams
When our anger has taken it's course
And allowed us to be free
It's the only point at which we know
We will truly be okay
Author notes
This was inspired by my own experiences and a friend of mine who is in a similar situation. I love her dearly and it pains me to see her hurt. I wrote this for her.
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Honorable mention
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Can you relate?
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My thoughts.
When I start reading this one I thought to myself, that is how is with Annie. I wonder when she gets that look in her eyes what she is thinking. A good piece that I can relate to. -
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Interesting that you would relate it to Annie, thanks for the comment!
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A very inspiring write! It is so true that we must process that anger in order to be free. I love it! Patty


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Thank you!
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To forgive is the highest thing you can do in life...but how do we forget..we don't, the mind holds on to everything. Well done, thanks for sharing
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Thank you for your kind words!
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This is such a deep heartfelt amazing write! You can feel each line with such power and emotion, I see you won an HM well done! I wish you the best of luck in the other contest as well. this piece of work is beautiful. Hugs~Nikki
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Thank you so much for the kind comments, I apprecite it.
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It can take a long time to get over any kind of abuse, I still suffer from panic attacks and nightmares. Having support can make the world of difference, your friend is very lucky to have someone like you to help her. You have penned a wonderful piece, showing there is hope for everyone. Superbly done
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Thank you! I appreciate the kind words. I hope someday soon the nightmares cease for you. I never suffered from panic attacks but that can't be easy. Best wishes to you!
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I can so relate as a survivor of child and adult abuse. I suffer from night terrors and pray each night for them to end. At times I think we can be our own worst enemnies I know I am my own. I too hope to be free too. I am here if you ever need to talk. Thanks for sharing


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Thank you so much for your kind comment. I don't think my experience with abuse is nearly as bad as yours, I hope you find peace within yourself. Thank you so much!
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So very touching; a heart-rendering expose of the consequences of being abused. There was so very much that I could relate to here, having been there myself.
From the hurtful words and recurring painful memories and nightmares forever replaying themselves in one's mind to the "forgive but not forget" part of it and finally a glimpse of the Light;
"When our anger has taken it's course
And allowed us to be free
It's the only point at which we know
We will truly be okay".
These are very powerful feelings that you have put into words. Well done, and thank you for sharing.
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Thank you so much for your kind comment.
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My pleasure!
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You kinda switched who you were talking about in the middle... It's really awkward.. Maybe look into a different way to change that.
An interesting piece to say the least, and hope that you two will be able to find peace within yourselves.
Good job.
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Hmmm
Well, I tried to go with just describing the emotions I saw within her, just from my point of view. Then went through all the thoughts running in her head, and the questions I had often asked myself in that situation, to the place where her and I find ourselves at peace. A place she has not gotten to yet.
Does this maybe help you understand where I was coming from?
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