Just For Him

The sky is turning a purplish blue
As i sit here thinking about you

Wanting someone to be here
Always by my side

But that will never happen
For parents are always the evil

we are not yet 18 so we can't do a thing
so as i sit here waiting for the time to pass

I feel the sudden urge of despair, confusion, and anger
All of these come flooding upon me

I cannot help it

Hurry Hurry find my razor
Find my knife

I will make myself sane for a moment
Only for a moment but for now that will do

The Blood runs down in a beautiful crimson flow
Spilling everywhere

The sweet sticky smell fills the room
I hurry to find some nice perfume to cover the smell

So nobody will know
Because I do not want to go back

B
  A
    C
        K

To that place where that one guy thinks he knows
you know the guy who tells you if your crazy or not.

I don't think that guy should even have a say
He doesn't know me or me him

As it still flows I sudden think of him
And the tears flow…

F
  A
    L
        L
          I
            N
              G

From my eyes.

He loves me no matter what
He told me he did.

What nobody knows is when we're both 18
We’re gone…never to return…

Away from this place we’ve had to call home
We’ll find a new place to call our own

But this mistake that I have made
Will cut him deep but not in the arm
But in the

H
E
  A
  R
    T

And that is something I cannot bear
Now I promise I will try my hardest not to anymore

Just for him…