Feeling Better?

There's the problem now, that everytime someone asks me if i'm feeling better, all i can awnser is No. So here's it written, so i dont need to keep repeating it.

There's no reason at all why I should feel better. I wake-up in the morning and all I can do is fall apart. I get downstairs for breakfast, and nothing goes down my throat, and the only thing I can do is throw up. So I do all the thing I usually do, and all I can think about is him.

Followed by that, I get to school and someone asks me 'hows the boyfriend going' and all i can reply to that is 'ex' because anything else shreds me. The rest of the day isnt much diffrent, I can't eat, I can't laugh, I can't live.

Sometimes it hurts so badly I can't even cry, everything inside me is suffering, brute pain is destructing me, and the only reason im living is because I'm doing it for him.

And before you say 'get over it marz', don't even try to. Because there's one thing that i'm having the hardest time of all doing, is 'getting over it' because there's nothing to get over. He needs a break, and I probably do too, just not in this way. All i've lost is my title, and that feeling that went along with that tittle.

And it hurts so much, it's killing me.