It's being here that constrains me
These walls I can't stand
Trapped in a place of disorder and chaos
A place where depression follows me
That captures my creativity
And holds it captive
Where too much light makes me sick-
But the darkness is just as bad
Taken apart
To be put back together
The glue joints stick out
Can you see what I've weathered?
This strange mixture of hindrance and despair
Coughing up worries and prayers like clockwork
Don't miss a step
Don't dare defer
Stay awake at night
Wait for the rays to break through
Hold on until the next moment when I can escape
(Just wait for the chance,
It can't be long now)
I need something to do
I can't stay here like this
My mentality suffers while you all pretend
That I misunderstand;
You're making amends.
But all I could ever behold
Are these walls that adumbrate my mind
Keeping me quite forcibly confined
Sometimes I wonder if I'll ever realize my chance to abscond
Evade this day within these walls
But you've seen this before
And unfortunately, you know that
The only way to get out
Is by not going in.
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