How we came to be

We meet on that cold day in the mountains of the 4-H ski trip,
but before that you had kicked me in the head by accident on the bus.
I shrugged it off as you being someone that was just being annoying,
the memories of me meeting you still circle in my head.

How you plopped down on that love seat I was sitting on,
Scotty in the floor in front of me, playing checkers.
Me in my little moments were I didn't like anyone or anything unless I new them.
But to me it seemed that you just wanted to sit there and relax so I let you, just so I could finish my game.

You never moved you just kept talking, as if you had known me half your life.
The awkward little silences I kept giving you wouldn't drive you off,
I kept you entertained the hole time wanting nothing more than to be alone.
Finally you and Scotty left, and I was able to sneak out the front door, hoping to be alone.

know such luck I was stopped by LeAnn and her friends, which I had to sit and talk as well.
Finally being able to drag myself away from the lot by using the excuse I dropped something off the balcony I was able to head around back near the heater and sit their in the silence.

Taking in the silence with a sigh, I leaned back on the heater and looked down the hill beside the house.
Your voice rang out from above, makeing me think Well shit at first.
Looking up I saw you leaned over the balcany.

It took everything in me not to curse out loud that someone had found me.
I sat there in my little corner and talked to you, from the balcany just trying to get you to go away.
You wouldn't take the hint, and decided you were comeing down their with me.
My inside churned drastically for the fact that you were coming down off the balcany.

It wasn't long before you were their standing beside me,
that damn little smirk on your face,
I drew myself back into the shadows I had come accustom to being in for so long as you sat down beside me.

I wanted nothing more than to run, the fear of me being drawn into this man forced me to clam up.
Our convo started slowly, untill I felt as if I could trust you alittle bit.
I slowly came out of the shadows, and smiled for the first time in a while.
You were some piece of work, you must have felt priviliged since you were the only one that could get me to do that.

The sound of Maleah's voice cought me off guard, sending chills down my spine as she came from the lower balcany and headed toward us.
Seeing this I slowly turned pulling myself back into my shadow and headed alittle further from the group.
But you kept pulling me back in, no matter how much I tried to pull back you kept bringing me into the group.

Finally everyone left I stood alone outside for the first time that day,
feeling empty and alone.
I hated you for that, how you had made me fell hole once more.
Walking down to the row of tree's I sat their slowly debating on weather or not to jump.

Thinking that know one was their I sat down on the ground and looked down the hill, knowing if I jumped I wouldn't stop untill I had rolled to the very bottom.
The sound of foot steps cought me off gueard this time, thinking I was alone took this as a threat.
Jumping to my feet and spinning around to see who was closing the gap between me and themselfs, I faced you in a batteling stance.

I could see it in your eyes that, you know what I was doing.
The look in your eyes that looked right through me as you stood their smileing at me.
Noticeing just how close you were I moved farther down the hill to put some distance between us.

You followed with out me telling you too,
back then I wanted nothing more than for you to just shut up and go away.
I stood their untill the moment were you were destracted and went down the hill to the next landing hopeing that you had not seen me.

From my landing spot on the hill your shadow loomed over me,
wanting nothing more than to turn around and tell you to go away I decided that I would be nice and let you come down and be with me.

The next few days flew by,
not really knowing what happend I went along with everything that was happing.
Letting you do what ever you seen fit.

I look back now and think about that and smile,
knowing that if I had told you to go away we would have not gotten together.

Being with you this last month has really tought me something,
I had forgotten how it had felt to come home and relize that you can fall for someone every single time you see them.

I know that deep down that a part of me wants to hear the words that I long to hear,
but I don't think a part of me will let me say it back.
I know that deep down I have fellings for you,
that if I wait long enough you will come through.

I can never tell you these things to your face,
for I am to scared of your rejection.
I never new that being with you would bring me such joy.

For if I had known that I would have went after you when you broke up with Marissa.
I would have came out and told you how I felt,
instead of keeping my feeling a secret from you for these past 5 or 6 years.

I have waited for you that long,
and yes I guess some girls would have given up.
But if I would have you would have never came into the picture,
and the rest of my life would have been shared with a no account loser.