Square One

It's freezing tonight,
I wonder where you are,
and if you see the same stars
that I look at from my patio.

I can't help but miss the way we were,
the way we could talk for hours on end
about nothing and I could hang on to your every word,
as if it could be your last.

I long for the way you made me laugh,
the way you never made me cry,
the simple things you would whisper in my ear
and how you became so close to me.

I still have your dog tag
and I wear it close to my heart.
You promised it would bring you home to me,
but the army continues to keep us apart.

I want us to be like the way we were,
I know we had our hardships,
this distance, you getting sent back to Iraq
but I know how I continue to feel about you.

There must be a reason for my holding on to you,
It doesn't feel right letting go of you.
I would wait for you forever,
just knowing that you are in my life is all I need.

I can't help but think of you tonight,
as I have been the past few weeks.
I hate when I miss your calls or Instant Messages,
I am always afraid that one of those could be your last.

I want to get us back to where we were,
we went together so well.
I know you feel the same way,
but I keep missing your call
and my chance to ask you,
if we can go back to square one.