Deadend Nightmare

It's like a big glass wall,
standing high and tall
then crash
down it collides
down it falls
the slipper shards slide
and then divide
into fragments
undistinguishable.
Secrets, told
Held in like oxygen
under water
Hidden like burried treasure,
but only getting hotter,
Only steaming, and beeming
Until its flicked like
a fires ember
and suddly
remembered
Aching nightmares,
terrors not describeable
Only empty dreams,
of the fat and full
disgust.
The lust, in the eyes
The flashes of memories
the mistaken sorries,
for apologies
But i sit and i think
going through the signs
Never thinking, never aware
and the multiple times
I could have awoken
From this deadend nightmare

Author notes

I've made the font hard to see for a reason. This is my past, and i've only recently told someone, not the details. Anywayz, if you have a problem with it. then you can piss off