Break My Heart In Two

Do you know the pain I've suffered?
Do you know the longing I've felt?
Would you live with the same rock,
That weighs on my very emotions?
Did you ever really care for me?
Was it truly just a lie?
Was I so disposable from your life?
How could you leave me after it all?
How could you let go and leave me to fall?
You promised you'd always love me,
Promised we be together and be married.
I gave you my trust, my heart, and my soul.
I opened up and loosened the grip on my life,
I let go of my personal control.
I bared myself to you, hid nothing away,
But can you honestly say that you gave me the same?
I trusted you, allowed myself to fall in love with you.
Yet all I found in return was an endless black vacuum.
Every word you spoke to me seems distant.
Every idea of hope for us seems to have been destroyed.
I waited patiently for so long,
Determined that my heart could not be wrong.
For so long you confirmed that I was right,
Then turned that all upside in a single night.
How is it she's more special than me?
What does she have that I don't see?
Do you really find that I was blind?
Think you could pull the wool so easily over my eyes?
I know why you wouldn't come with me,
Didn't take the hand I offered easily.
You wanted out and I was providing that.
Still you turned it away, said you weren't ready yet.
So why did you then move away, for that girl on the internet?
Leave your home and family, all I cannot forget?
Is it really better there, are you truly happy?
Do you ever think of what you left behind you,
Do you ever wonder how life here is now?
Are you aware of how broken you left me?
Is there room left in your unthinking heart,
Even for your torn-up family?
Did you think we were blind to why you picked that state?
Think we didn't know about the cards you'd laid out straight?
Does this even hurt you one little bit?
Or was this something you could easily quit?
Do you know the tears we've cried for you?
Do you feel the same longing that we do?
Is life really all you'd hoped it would be?
Now that you've pushed away your family,
And that you've broken me.

Slowly, I'm picking up the pieces,
Slowly, I am attempting to heal.
Yet the wound you've inflicted,
The scar that you've reopened...
Will never leave forever anymore.