I wanted to let you know I self harm
please dont be angry
please dont hate me
I have lost all control
I have nowhere else to turn
I thought I would tell you
as I want help to stop doing it
I do it because I have no way else of coping
I feel so angry and constantly hurting inside
I want to be free of all pain
I want help to deal with my emotions
That are keeping me from the life I could have
I have not done it to hurt you
I have done it to hurt myself
to try and hide my horrible past
I need your help
I'm scared and frightened of whats ahead
I'm scared of going through my past and dealing with it
I'm also scared of it happening again
I dont want to die
Thats why I need your help
As I dont know how much more I can take.
A contest entry
- Cutters tell me why by Maili Knephthan.
400 points, ended January 15, 34 entries
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Comments
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Oh, sweetie! I don't know who you are, but right now, I just want to hug you!

I almost cried. Really.
As I said to a couple other contestants, my boyfriend is an ex-cutter, and it wasn't easy to find out about that part of his past. I felt guilty, horrible about not being able to make the pain go away; but I discovered that there's not much that we, the loved ones, can do except be supportive when you guys want to talk about it.
Self-harm affects everyone, and that's why it's so important for all cutters to open up to us as you have with this write. I've never cut myself, but I've written as a cutter several times; biggest eye-opener EVER.
Aside from a few spelling- and grammar-errors, I could see nothing wrong here. It's a lovely, soul-bearing confession, and I feel like I've invaded your mind on a very personal level. If you ever need to talk about it, please let me know.

Laura, aka Immortal


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noway should be no way you squished it together when it should of been two separate word. This was very well written minus this one mistake. Thank you for entering
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hi
thanks for the comment and have changed the spelling mistake thanks for telling me and pointing it out
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