Diary Of An Addict

I am to be a total waste case
Living among societies unmentionables
I  call a dumpster home
I  wake up with flies on my face
And lice in my hair
I'd scratch my nuts
Then I climb out of my home and begin searching
Rummaging through dumpsters for old soda and beer cans
So that I could get my daily medication

The burn of whiskey fels so good
As it runs down my throat and settled into my chest
With that Black Velvet in my veins I commence
The second part of of my daily medication
Out come the Zig Zags and my ever faithful bag of weed
I roll it up as a few mothers pass by with their children
But I don't look at them
They can't get me drunk or high
So why even bother to say hello
Like the would even want to associate with such unmitigated scum
I sit motionless on a wooden park benck and spark my medication up
The smoke hits my lungs like a lead brick soaked in sulfuric acid
But it makes all my pain vanish for just a few hours
I wash each toke down with a shot of pain go bye bye juice
and then slowly amble towards my favorite stream
Each step brings me higher and higer and closer and closer
I stop and fumble through my pockets for a cigarette
To edge myself up even more
I take drag after drag until I'm puffing the filter
Then I sit down on an old half rotten log
And I let my mind totally go
So it can run wherever it wants to
Hopefully today, it won't come back

I do the same old shit every goddamn day
And all I want to do is stop
But stopping means that I will have to face reality
And all the pain that comes along with it
I want my family
Shit, I just want to take a showerand shave
And put on some nice clothes so I can go look for a job
But then, my medication starts to wear off
And little by little I am thrust back into the real world
Where I know that I will be sleeping in the dumpster
Behind the run down strip mall
Where insects and vermin will have their way
With my frail body as I sleep