my anger

You know how sick i am of this.
Over and over, I'm cast aside,
like nothing that matters, i'm just another thing
to play with until they get bored and say
this is where you serve your time.
what have I done to deserve this,
I don't care, i'll yell it out if I have to,
I'm not something for when you're bored!
I hate how I'm the last resort,
how you don't tell me shit!
I'd rather be in the darkness of my heart
then be here with this!
Do you know what you're doing to me!
I guarantee you don't! Well here's the deal
this is where My anger will subside.
I hate how this is what you've made me!
i don't like how you can't say words to me
you could to someone else!
This anger won't subside,
it hasn't for the longest of times,
I need her, and yet you continue to take her away,
this is where my darkness lies.
My mind is being torn apart, why can't you just trust me like the one for me does with me!
I don't know what to do, I'm losing myself because of you! I want to forget my past, i want to scream it out!
i want someone to trust me with all their heart
and force me to tell them shit when I can't
I want someone to make sure, i don't do stupid shit
I want someone to love me, I don't want these dark words
just promise me something, just trust me
and let yourself see what you're doing to me