Love is a Magnet

I feel so unwanted,
I feel so alone.
It's a cold and dark life.
I have almost no one.
I feel worthless,
Like a nobody.
I guess I don't deserve their love,
Nor their attention.
It pains me to be here,
Yet it pains me to be gone.
I don't understand why I come back.
I know I hate it with a passion,
I know nothing ever changes,
And I know it never will.
Something keeps pulling me back though.
I don't know what it is.
I think hard about why.
Why I keep putting myself in Hell.
Then suddenly,
I see.
It is love.
Love is crazy.
It is blind.
It will pull you back to the worst places,
Even when you know they're bad.
You can't control it though.
It overtakes you.
You try to get away,
But you can't.
This is because love is like a magnet.

Author notes

I wrote this because I found myself coming back to a horrible place, weekend after weekend. I kept telling myself I would never go back, yet i kept going back. I was so confused as to why considering I hated every second I was there. I realized it was the love I have deep inside for the people there. I can't control this.