Too Many Prayers

And as I realize you're no longer here...
I take up this burden and pull it in gear.
I've always wondered why, I've always been hurt.
Been pushed around and felt like a piece of dirt.
I've fallen to my knees again.
And I don't think I can get up.
God, is there an angel you can send?
Because my life's always sucked.
I want to sleep at night... and not dream of him.
This guys whose name is Sean Flynn.
God, take this knife and stab it through my heart.
Because I can't take this anymore...
Ever since he decided to depart.
Maybe he's not worth it...
All of this pain
But for now... I feel as if I'm going insane.
"God," I scream.
As the tears begin to run.
Take my life either way because there's nowhere I can run.
I don't want to die because he left me.
I want to die because there's nowhere meant for me to be.
I've felt left out all of my life.
And all I've ever felt was anguish and strife.
"Help me!" I cry
Yet no one answers
There's no God
...There's too many prayers