The moment before the occurrence

Thou was deep in thought,
before and after reading,
reading the letter containing words,
words of hatred, disapproval, and even disgust
thou sobbed many, even several, tears
while being deep in thought,
for thou soaked thou's pillow,
in hours of sobbing thou's eyes out,
no one came to see thou,
thou layed on the bed alone
and pitiful,
afterwards that's when it all occurred,
thou guesses thou didn't think long enough
for thou still used metal on her,
she was defenseless, non-the-less,
completely helpless,
thou attacked her out of no where,
at one point thou was aware of thou
and thou's action that was soon to occur,
thou wasn't tinking long or deep enough
before the occurrence,
the moment before the occurrence
thou's eyes were rainless,
after the moment and after the occurrence,
thou's eyes felt like gummy bears
stuck in a jar of peanut butter,
thou's hands trembled in adrenaline,
aroused and overwhelmed in adrenaline.