A choice I made,
a decision...but I have to make this cut,
I could not live with myself otherwise.
Happy babies, healthy babies,
to not have a baby at all is better.
At least I will not have the pain of looking at my child and knowing, I could have prevented their inevitable pain.
...no matter the gut wrenching tears that fall today.
A mother's love of her unborn children,
to give them the choice of not experiencing a life of distress, were they to even make it that far.
My very womb cries when I see what I will never have.
Only a few hours would be worth it to experience motherhood, carrying the life of my child inside,
but never at their expense. I would die for them.
And so, when the doctor makes those two small cuts,
I pray that God hears the cries
and embraces the lives of my babies that would now never be
into His arms, so that they might live on in Heaven
as perfect angels.
Author notes
Choice #1
I'd enter another poem I have about my upcoming tubal ligation except this contest was no prewrites.
Many people don't understand, but it's one thing to live with a genetic disorder yourself. I flat out refuse to to take the risk of conceiving when I know what the odds are for my children. As much as I wish to conceive a child, my own desires do not matter in this situation.
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Very well written. I was not expecting such a write. Going into the medical field I must deal with these situations. I can only begin to imagine how you must feel. I decided if I could not carry a child on my own(which as far as I know at twenty I can but I've never been checked) I would adopt an infant. I just couldn't live my whole life without a baby. It's always been my plan to get married and have babies I just didn't think I'd be wanting it so young although I guess the military life makes you a lot older sometimes. I'm sure you made the right choice, may god bless you. I loved this poem. Great work!
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