I need a purpose...
A reason to continue living.
Lets not forget that my
Dad left me when I was 3,
His hair was more important
Than taking a treatment
For his cancer. I lived with
An alcoholic who punished
Me for no reason, stood me
In the corner for hours
Forgetting I was there,
Grounding me to my room
For months at a time,
Oops, I didn't clean the
Cup right...
I need a purpose...
A reason to continue living.
Lets not forget that boy
Who at age 12 took
The innocence of a 4 year old
His hand going where it
Should not be, down my pants
And inside my body,
Touching me, feeling me,
Hurting me and taking my
Hand and puting it where
It should not go,
Making me feel him.
I still get shivers up my
Spine remembering those days,
Those days that will
Forever haunt me...
I need a purpose...
A reason to continue living.
Lets not forget that other boy
Who threatened me and
Hurt me, leaving bruises on
My arms, forcing me down
On the ground, groping me,
Touching me in the wrong way
And no matter how many times
I screamed no, no matter how
Many times I kicked at him,
Swung at him, he continued on,
Hitting me to make me stop...
I need a purpose...
A reason to continue living.
I cannot forget my past,
It still haunts me during
Those long, dark nights
I lie awake in my bed
Tossing and turning
Trying to escape those demons
That chase me 'round and 'round
Reminding me that
I'm never entirely free,
That I'll always be a victom
Of those taunting memories...
Author notes
I wrote this on a whim, the words started forming a poem in my head. I finaly got up and decided to put them on paper. It's not my best, but I think it's alright. Tell me what you think please.
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I know how you feel... I sometimes find myself like this as well, not knowing why I should carry on, but they always say that there's always some reason why you live, even just to support those who care about you, at least it's something.
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Wow you are very good. But this kind of poem. . .it's hard to read. You should never let something out of our control bother you like that. . .I to exprienced being left grounded (for 2 years) because I didn't clean the bowl right. a smoker not alcoholic. Your poetry is good, start there. . . you have talent. Not everyone is good at it. . .
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Very good
Your poem has alot of emotion written into it. loved it -
I feel sad and think it is very well written
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i loved all of the raw emotion in this poem. it has such truthfulness and really makes me think. society has really gone to hell these days, and nobody takes the time to do anything about it. thank you for sharing.
xxundeadxtearsxx
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well honestly i hope this didnt really happen, if it did i hope thise people burn in hell, but its really good
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Wow that's deep. I think I felt almost every word. I think you did a great job. I think you should keep up the good work.
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well... this is one of those times i wish to myself that this is Just a poem... and not a recollection... but it is a great poem... i really like it
~Nick
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I wish I could say the pain isn't there.
I wish I had the words to undo what has been done.
i wish all the love you and Aaron share is all the purpose you'll ever need. I LOVE YOU AND I know you love me to. -
wow nice poem you could turn some of your poems into songs just think how famous you would be lol my dad did that but hes not famous his friend is though that made it a song it makes you feel good in side and i think this poem is excellent!!!
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SAD
this sounds like my life's history abused and hurt
and no one doing anything about it
my step father is the cause of who i am
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