CONTROL?
Are You There,
Lingering In The Ocean Of
Stomach Acid
Trying To Deminish My Weaknesses
That I Have Shoved Down
My Open Mouth
Yearning For Something More.
More,
Nothing In Particular.
Just More.
More Love.More Care.More Beauty.
I Know I Have Lost You,
Again. Like Always.
Though I Do Know This,
All I Want More Of Is
A Tast Of The Hell I Had
Only But A Second Ago.
Or More Like The Sin
That Brings Me Into
This Hell I Reside In.
Such An Ugly Flesh,
Forgive Me- For You Know I've Sinned.
You Can Tell By The Bulge,
The Rolls,
The Bones You Have To Search Hours For,
And The Way It Thunders When I Walk Into A Room.
starve me.
cleanse me.
make me better.
can you relate?
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This is so beautiful.
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This is so painful, but so beautiful. I can really relate to this feeling of self conciousness. You've written about it, exactly how it feels.
My favorite part is:
"All I Want More Of Is
A Tast Of The Hell I Had
Only But A Second Ago."
Brilliant.
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great poem, but really painful as well.
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It's a wonderful poem! The way I feel ALOT of times! This poem is like LadyAmalthea said strong and painful! I have the same issues alot of times, when I go two or three days and then eat, the feeling of full isn't satisfying for me, the feeling of empty, makes me feel so much better and confident, thinking about every roll every pound I have makes me sit and cry...This poem is amazing you did wonderful!
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ahhhh. This is strong and painful. I know how it feels, to not be able to push the food away, to feel it sink down and weigh you down and pull you down into ugliness. If you dont feel empty, you dont feel beautiful. And thinking about the flesh that sits on you makes you cry, so much work to empty yourself of your pain.
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wow this poem is amazing--i love it--it fits the was i feel so well
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good poem. i hope it isn't true.
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