A daily terror

A wake up each morning
What do I do
Roll out of bed for work
Then I put on my shoes
He calls me
I smile
Another conversation that is worth all the while
I work all day long
To come home
And get in the car
Just to listen to the songs
Look at different surroundings
Still not knowing what to do
I feel you looking at me
Then I look back at you
Song after song
They keep passing on by
Just like the oppertunity
For me not to cry
Its hard to save a dime
When we keep cutting out of line
Not having our heads on straight
Makes it hard to participate
This relationship is strong
But...for how long...
That is not up to me
Don't you see
I"m the one waiting
For you to come clean
Mentally struggling to hold on
Fearing that it is her you love
And me that you are trying to con
I can't help but to have doubts
Especially when I feel like
I'm stuck in this drought
I hope you don't resent me
For the feelings i hold inside
I don't want to feel pain anymore
I don't want to hide
I want to come out and let everyone know
I want you to get out of there
I want us to show
She already knows so what does it matter
I don't know what to think
My mind starts to scatter
I get you on the weekdays
When she has school
Then 3 o' clock rolls around
She thinks shes so cool
If only she knew
What he holds inside
She wouldn't be hanging around
She would be the one to hide
I watch him walk by so perfectly
The kind of flawless
We all wish that we could be
She looks at him
With the utmost desire
My stomache weakens
I start to tyer
Should she really be my threat
Should I be strong
And know that I just can't forget
The way that he holds me
The words that he speaks
Everything that he says
Makes me so weak
Challenges I seek, everyday
Outcomes I follow, Words will never say
Reality weeping over the room
One day we will pick up where we left off
One day our relationship will resume
Negitivity arouses
Will there be a final fight
Or will there be a grander insight
A victim in the eyes of life
Yet another day
Fufilled with strife