I never fully understood why i acted how i did, i was young and wanted more than you were willing to give. You gave me your heart, love and sweetness, I should have cherished that but i didn't. I was stupid, but i did love you more than you know. The person i left you for wasn't better than you, not better at all. They treated me bad and made me cry. I'd sit there at night and ask myself why. Why did i leave you? why was i so stupid?
Why wouldnt you forgive me? i knew that answer, i wouldnt even forgive me. i flirted too much, and cheated a couple of times. Once is bad enough, but twice?! i knew better and i knew i was going to lose you, but i kept on going, i kept on doing it while i left you to cry and get angruy. and when youd blow up at me, id ask myself why...and when you couldnt trust me, id ask myself why?
i was sick then but im better now, can we give it another go? i can hear your words ringing in my head, "i'm sorry but no." we had so much in common and i needed you so badly, it was all my fault, i should have acted rationally. i can still see your face, your almond shaped eyes, the softness of your skin and the happiness in your smile. Thats's what i saw once, now i see nothing, you're gone and i lost you. you're never coming back, not to me...and i dont blame you. ~*~
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