He is beyond my reach and his heart impenetrable,
I don't know what to do with myself anymore,
Knowing he is someone who I can never have,
So making him an imagination of my design.
Torment and torture deep within this heart of stitches,
I can't go on like this anymore with it building and rising inside,
I'm weeping with crystal tears tracing the lines on my face,
I'd do anything for him to belong to me.
But I can't let this take over my thoughts,
And yet it already has and consumed my heart,
I can't make this emotion real enough for him to feel,
I feel so alone and without someone that special someone.
I so ashamed of thinking these things,
Now I don't know how to react or what to do,
When he stares at me so greedily and forgetting all else,
He's the dream that I cannot shake or get rid of.
I don't know what to do and can't let this build up inside of me,
For his love for me will never be surfaced nor expressed,
Choking on these feelings that I just need to spit out,
For he will never be mine and he isn't real to me anymore....



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