Staring At Your Car

staring at your car
knowing that it smells of you inside
scents of cologne [despite the fact you're a girl]
sex and apologies.
all the apologies you never said
all the ones i said for you.

staring at your car
stalling, hoping to see you
just so i can ignore you.
i just want to break you down
so i can build you up again.

it doesn't matter that i'm with someone else.
feeling him fill me up inside is fake.
because its a HIM, and not a HER.
it's someone else, and not you.

when i think of everything
weighing facts against my love
knowing it will never be different
no matter how many times we try.
my love for you will always outweigh
every negative fact there is.

staring at your car
as i finally pull away
blaring out our song
petal to the metal
waiting for the give
of the downshift
and the give
on this strain
of your love.