As Loose as the Fall Out.

My walls;
Plastered with pictures of old times, fond memories past
That time in my back yard
The night we got dressed up for a silly school dance
They're almost as loose as the fall out
It made me believe I was on top of the world
I can laugh whole heartedly
Or I can cry until my eyes are dry
But time won't allow me to go back
Back to the days before I let myself slip
Before I let my friends down
Tripping on my words and giving my own secrets away
Blinded by the so called truths of another
Driving aimlessly
The stereo blaring out words I hung onto
Clenching the steering wheel wondering
Where did I go?
I dropped everything important outside my family
A ominous cloud hovered over me
I didn't need any more comfort
But I did.
I felt crippled and abused
And sorting through old pictures didn't help
And laughing to myself wouldn't cure the hurt
And believing teen drama leaves no imprint
After it's all said and done
I was so naive
Now that trust is such an issue
Comfortable isn't a word I hear too often
I carefully remain the same person I became long ago
Seasons change and people get colder with the weather
But even though change keeps coming
I won't take down those pictures
Because I can't stand to be alone.