It hurts and I can't stop it
I don't want to feel
but it comes back even with the joint lit
I need something more, something real.
I'm trying to ask for help
but the words refuse to come
they stay trapped in this heart-shaped cell
so that only I know what I've done.
Losing him was a blow
one I couldn't avoid
and avoiding him now is so low
just to make sure my eyes are no longer moist.
I feel so much
I hurt so bad
try to kill it with drugs
to forget all I had.
My chest is tight-
*cough cough inhale*
I'm getting out of the dark and forgetting the light
forgetting the love so weak it would fail.
I need more
as the smoke surrounds me
I need it in my core
I need this high not to leave.
I'll drown you out
I'll destroy myself
raise it to my mouth...
get rid of this hell.
Author notes
Sometimes, feeling hurts too much and the only thing you want to do is get fucked up.
Comments
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Damn Courtney. It sucks that you have to go through what you go through, just remeber that you have your frineds to turn to and that you don't need to rely on drugs and booze to ease the pain.
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mmmm....
forget him courtney he's not worth it!
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