Disappoint

I'd like to say
I'm fine
That everything's
Alright
But it's not
Not this time

I disappoint so much
Let so many down
Teammates
Coaches
Friends
And family

I'm tired of it
This pressure
I place on myself
I always end up
Being let down

I don't want
These stupid tears
I cried enough
Last year

I don't know what
To tell myself
To make me think
It's ok
To see the look of disappointment
On their face

Author notes

I hurt my ankle playing basketball, so I couldn't practice for a week. I hated just watching. Now, today for the first time I can practice, but I have to take it "easy". Taking it easy is not something I'm used to doing and I hate it! And it sucks cause I'm tying to stay positive, but I'm letting so many down.