in the pond

I am terrified.

Cold brushes through the grasses

The hair on my arm stands up

myself collapses
I sink in the pond near my house

I sat there when I was a child and day dreamed

Today, I miss my love

He is gone, an angel now he is.

I just imagine sinking into the pond...
Collapsing to shreds in the thorns in the brush by the pond.

Falling in to the moss, becoming the damp.

I am aching.

Cold brushes through the grass

The hair on my head frizzes,

And I feel your warm touch, for a moment in time.

It's gone, it's cold, a ghost tormenting me

In my room, in my bed.

A ghost tormenting me

By the pond,

Where we sat and fingered out lunch

Where we sat talking, drinking alcoholic punch

Where we sat and dreamed of our future, talked of the past.

One day you were here,

Too soon, you had collapsed

Into the past, like my ghost in the pond...

I collapsed in the pond, when you left.