It Would Have Saved Us

I gaze upon the arriving moon
looking forward until a new day,
wondering if what I'm doing is too soon,
but something inside has something reassuring to say

I continue forward, floating upon a cloud,
taking in my surroundings, knowing my choice
but yet my mind is wandering, my thoughts are loud,
and I look back once more to that distant voice

Three years of joy, heartbreak, and everything in between
with every step, I looked back at the once before
but as it came to an end, your love went unseen
for you had changed, and in the end I wanted more

I could see us walking, I'm dressed in all white.
I could see the beautiful park, the perfect cake.
The perfect ceremony, your smile beaming with light
but something pulled me out until I was awake.

The vision began to change, happiness slowly drifting away.
All I wanted was the old you, the loving you
but it was gone, I was lost, no words to say.
I was bitter from all the heartache you put me through.

Hidden insight. To the inner workings of your mind.
Things you seem to never be able to tell me.
Things that would've saved us, if only I could find
that inner voice of yours, to see what we could be...

But you hid all your emotions...
I lost all control, let the hostility unfold...
you seemed like you were just going through the motions...
I didn't feel the passion that our encounters used to hold...

Honesty, trust, letting it all out...
it would've saved everything...

I've lost all sense of direction.
You're so distant now.